Hello all
Well what a tough week this last one has been. I have committed to a formal practice everyday and yesterday discovered the body scan which helped my recognise the subtle feelings and not so subtle sinking feeling in my stomach.
However, unfortunately today I caught up in the "drama" of the week and what I've termed the script. The "script" for me is the negative voice that tells me I can't I'm useless etc. today I very much found myself caught up in the old pathways that spark negative connections. As I'm writing this there is a sliver of compassion as this is the strongest way my brain knows how to be. However, I'm also mindfully aware of the part that tells me I shouldn't have got caught up in it. This is the battle I seem to be aware of at various times. It seems that whilst aware of it I feel unable to stop the downward spiral.
I have yet to decide whether seeing this is 1. Mindful in itself and 2. Whether there is a way to break the cycle of seeing negative problems all around me.
I would be interested in other people's experiences of similar feelings.
Thanks
